I love the fact that I don't have to belittle other people to make me feel better about myself.



keep running your mouth, insignificant and insecure girls. I am beautiful, fabulous, and people love me. I am happy with who I am, and although I've done some stupid things in the past, I know I've only grown for the best.





too bad at the end of the day you can't say that. and your bed sure feels lonely at night after your latest fuck leaves, doesn't it?



ha. ha. ha.

Current Mood: smug
Current Music: Paramore - "Misery Business"

being an adult sucks. anyone know how to grow money off a tree yet?

So this morning I was cursing the skies that I had to spend such a beautiful day in the radio studio with no windows.


But, God rewarded my missing out by making Chicken Pizza appear at pizza hut on campus, then once I get to the studio, I get to go free form since there are no logs to play off of.



EPIC WIN!

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Ghostland Observatory - "Dancing On My Grave"

I never thought I'd ever relate to a Paramore song. FTW.




I LEAVE FOR NEW YORK IN TWO DAYS. HOLY SHIT. I AM PSYCHED. I am going to fucking get lost in a big city with lots of bright lights with two friends. How can this be any better? And all expenses paid minus my food. How could this not be perfect for me right now?




So when you don't see me update here much anymore, know I'm finally happy. Like, laughing and fucking skipping and so fucking happy I can't stand it. I am so fucking happy. I can only use words like fuck to explain it, as completely incapable as that may seem.


Remember spring 2006? Yeah. I'm that girl again. a long drive can do wonders for the soul of a lost soul.




I love spring. I can't to spend late nights outside in the valley on a blanket. come lay with me! please!



hsgkalghalsg hahaahhah I AM SO FUCKING HAPPY TO EXIST RIGHT NOW!



thank you, god!

Tags: life, living
Current Mood: FUCKING ALIVE!
Current Music: Paramore - "Misery Business"

Today I stood amongst a misty ocean (fog, to be exact) and ran into waves with wreckless abandonment.



I jumped into the ocean and took waves to the face that were almost as tall as I am. I laughed. I screamed. and I realized, I only live once. I felt so damn alive.




I fly home tomorrow. and I'm going to start living now.

Current Mood: hopeful

This whole "being sick" thing is really getting beyond old. It has been a week. Really body? thanks.


I'm listening to my current favorite song we are playing. it's beyond beautiful. perfect rainy day music. And I'm about to play my least favorite song, "Caroline's A Victim". Sadly, I feel as if I'm the only victim for having to listen to this fucking wreck of a musical catastrophe.



ugh. it started.



I'm excited about some of my upcoming shifts. I'm doing a 6 hour block of THANKS! tomorrow on air, which was totally my idea (rock!) and a specialty show that I have been freaking out trying to get together on saturday. Tune in to either if you love me. we do stream online and all...




I'm hyped up on my anti-biotics right now. my eyes are blotchy and I have coughed/gotten sick one too many times thanks to this. I can't wait to take a nap.

Tags: radio station, revolution, sick
Current Location: Revolution 91.7
Current Music: Band Of Horses - "Is There A Ghost?"

So, I just had the most "WTF" moment of my life. a moment to end a WTF kind of weekend.



As I was sitting in my dorm chair thinking of working on a summary of my D93 experience friday, my chair exploded beneath me, sending me crashing to the floor. Keep in mind, that I wasn't even doing anything special. just sitting.



... guh.

Tags: wtf
Current Location: Rodes 303
Current Mood: confused
Current Music: Freezepop - "Plastic Stars"

I feel alive. Today has been the best day I have had in the last six months. I just want to gush about ten different things at once.


amazing.

Tags: life
Current Music: Q-Feel - "Dancing In Heaven (Orbital Bee-Bop)"

I miss playing instruments at times. I know that sounds odd, but I honestly do! I was just now walking across campus amidst all of the chaos that is tailgating and I see the marching band travel by me. My heart just broke a little watching them.



So, I've taken up electronic music. It's the closest I'll get to saxophone or trombone for quite awhile. I am in the middle of creating my third song in the last month. I'm starting to use the keyboard feature on garage band and using a basic beat underneath. The more I play, the better it seems to be getting. I just wish I was good enough of a writer to create some vocals.





I feel depressed and apathetic. this weather kills me. I wish I didn't have a window so I wouldn't be reminded of it! Where in the bloody hell did the sun go?

Current Location: Rodes 303
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Har Mar Superstar - "Alone Again (Naturally)"

I forgot to eat for 24 hours. oops!

I love Webkins. I'm not even going to lie about it. I'm addicted. Thank you, Mandy.


I may be going to the most ridiculous show ever tomorrow. and I cannot wait to laugh. yes! It's a costume show and the band is playing all Misfits covers. ha. ha. ha. :]



I love the Heinkein commercial song. the electronic one with the robot chick? yeah. I love it. a little too much. I wish it wasn't just thirty seconds long and about a portable keg.

Current Mood: chipper

renewal.


drip
drop
drip
drop
drip
drop


it keeps raining. and it seems like it may never end. my feet are cold. my shoes are wet. and I just miss the sun.


drip
drop
drip
drop

now it all breaks,
disintegrates.
Well this is the last thing I’ll take
cause I can’t face you now.


drip
drop
drip
drop


fin.

Current Mood: amused
Current Music: The Appleseed Cast - "Fight Song"

So I started off today with what sounded like soccer and a metal tin, awaking me at 7:15, much earlier than I should be.

then on my way to class, it starts raining upward. I mean, seriously. Like, water was coming out of the ground. and I was wearing my canvas shoes. fuck!


And as I am walking down the hall to my second and final class for today, a new deejay grabs me and I get stuck in the studio due to a deejay no calling and no showing for their shift. Sexy? Not quite. Now I am over twenty minutes late for a class in my major.




fuck today already.

Tags: revolution, stupid deejays
Current Location: Revolution 91.7
Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: Kim Wilde - "Kids In America"

So it's been an interesting day to say the least.


I attempted to dye my hair dark brown, and it ended in an awkward black shade. Luckily, I am rocking it fairly well, so I am super excited. check out facebook/myspace for pictures if you are oh so interested.



I also went to dinner at the taj palace after the radio station meeting with my rather goth station manager, Dr. Yambor and a few other staff members. It was hilarity in and of the situation. Getting to bond with her outside of the station, and talking to Adam/Katie/Amanda about random things was super nice. We shared stories of revoltuion, bad jobs, and stupid things we did in our pasts. A dinner lasting two and a half hours that I most likely will never forget.




So overall, I am super happy with my life right now, yet again. There is one thing I'm slightly missing now, but I think I'll make it through without indulging.







kisses.

Tags: dinner, hair, radio
Current Location: Revolution 91.7
Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: Laromlab

I saw the most beautiful movie tonight. I mean, it was breathtaking, amazing, outstanding. Most likely one of the greatest movies I have ever seen, and will ever see.

I litterally was brought to tears while "Let It Be" played over an extremely emotional scene. This is rare for me and movies.


Go see Across The Universe right now.


I want to go buy every Beatles record now and re-live my childhood. god. I already own Abbey Road, that's a good start.






I wanna live life to the fullest. :] I intend on it now.

I'm sitting here in my favorite chair in the office watching the rain and coding my little fingers off. This is the most peaceful revolution moment I have had in months. it's weird for this office to be so quiet.



I have sucessfully spent an entire week (last tuesday to today) without saying anything negative about anyone, and damn it feels nice. I mean, I have even extinguished nasty comments about people I shouldn't even bother with. I think this is a goal that not only lasted me this week, but that I will make a common goal.



Rocky Votolato is the ultimate rainy day music. "Passing White Daisys" just came on. this is incredible.




I'm content. Relaxed. At ease.




I'm dying my hair brown. maybe tonight. maybe tomorrow. either way, I'm done with the colored hair phase of my life. Blue was fun. Red was crazy. But, now I'm just ready to fade into the background and let someone else get the attention of people. I like the limelight much better anyway.

Current Location: Revolution Office
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Less Than Jake -"The Science Of Selling Yourself Short"

You know what is an amazing feeling? having a room full of people (mainly adults with name tags on) on a campus tour come right before your break, then nailing it. And having a "wow" come as a collective whole. then having one of them stop to compliment on the way out. holy shit.


I love rocking face. it's such a great feeling.


Radio broadcasting. Yeah, you're my calling.



i've been in here since six am. time to get the fuck out. only to come back at two. LAMEXCORE.

Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: Paramore - "Misery Buisness"

I've done some house cleaning.

mostly just un-adding dead/inactive journals
or people whose journals I don't read anymore.




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I feel groggy.

Note to self: Never take a nap at 5 until 8 pm and not expect to feel annoyingly awake at midnight.

Current Mood: artistic
Current Music: Saves The Day - "Certian Tradgedy"